its about love.

my love story,

in every love story it must have sacrifice, loyalty, believe and appreciate to make the love story more beautiful. me, love? when 29/9/06, i had been said, " okay! " its sign for me to accept benn as a couple partner. i learned about love. i can answered all the question that hang around my mind. i feel by myself how to be in love. benn, that i has been in love before. he taught me what is the love mean. around a more than a year, i was being with him. for the first time, he makes me cry for a man except my dad. love that we built was destroyed in the end of the year 2008. in the chaotic situation, once i try to accept someone but i failed. my first love was give the big impact of my life. i'm so sorry, i didn't mean to play his heart. after i tell the truth, i try to accept benn back. but, i need a time to continue our relation back. in the process, there got a problem that should not be happen. and at that time, i just said its enough. i dont want to feel what i felt before. damn hurt me up. at that time i was always being around my friend. they hook me up. Alhamdulillah, they were my best friend ever. thanks dear! one day, someone had light my life up. in our beggining story, he's only friend of my friend. but now, he's my everything.muhammad husaini b. hasan basri, im nurbazilah bt abd hamid would like to say that i was so in love with you. my heart is only for you. what i hope in future will become true.insyaAllah! hope what i feel is like what you feel. for all the assumption that we will had, we will go through smoothy. i hope the best from you. your honestly make my love more deeper in through. our past, will became our giude to our relation in the future.insyaAllah. thanks for waiting me for a long time. finally, we were together now.Alhamdullillah!

with my full of love.salam!

♥

.mood for him.

1. Kekasih saya adalah :
= a best person in the world.

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
= sweet sacrifice by Evanences.

3. Mungkin saya patut:
= mundy time nih! :)

4. Saya suka :
= chocolate! damn! damn! so much!

5. Sahabat baek saya
= saya sayang mereka!

6.Saya tak paham :
= kenapa dia tanye soalan2 pelik.awk sehat? haih.

7.Saya kehilangan :
= kucing kesayangan saya, shitoking!

8.Ramai yang berkata :
= "buzz, ko dgn sape skang?" haih.penat nk jwb.

9.Makna nama saya :
= nurbazilah membawa maksud cahaya cerdik.thanks nenek!dye yg bg!

10.Cinta itu adalah :
= suci.yg tak ternilai.dan sukar utk mendapat kan nya.

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
= pikir kn seseorang.rinduuuuuuuu.

12.Saya akan cuba :
= buat yg terbaik utk parents saya.kerana saya sayang mereka!

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
= until forever!

14.Telefon bimbit saya :
= dah xbunyi.sbb dye tgh mkn.hehe~

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
= saya tgk org sbelah.hani madu rupenyer! tgh berborak.

16.Saya paling meluat apabila :
= org suka mengongkong' saya.

17.Pesta/Parti adalah :
= tempat bersuka ria bersama teman.we'll gonna party tonite!

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
= kitty.oh.damn!teringat shitoking!:(

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
= 5 tahun.xpikir pape.main je keja!

20.Hari ini :
= penat! telinga xberehat.

21.Malam ini saya akan :
= jumpa dia.hehe.

22.Esok pula saya akan
= pegi kelas lab org. chem ptg.

23.Saya betul-betul inginkan :
= dia. ;)

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
= alhamdulillah.dgn ciptaan Dia.

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
= nk pegi ngan dia.hehe.

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
= both.oh.lame xmkn sushi!

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap:
= terang.gelap bnyk nyamuk.hee~

28.Makanan segera adalah :
= maggie!perisa tomyum favourite!

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
= "aku xtawu lg nk kuar kol brape." haish, dah 2 kali airen tanye nk kuar kol brape.penat nk jwb.

30.Siapa yang anda mahu Tag?
= anyone. :)

.mood for anything.

50 FIRST REACTIONS... Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it!

1. Beer : oh.no!

2. Food : nasi goreng USA td.haha~

3. Relationships: no cmment.hee~

4. Crush : car?

5. Power Rangers : oh.like the pink one! oh.yeah!

6. Life : awesome!

7. The President: president club?

8. Yummy : chocolate strawberry! damn!

9. Cars : i want one.huh.asyik nek taxi.dah lah mahal!

10. Movie : haish.sampai xtaw nk tgk citer ape.hee~

11. Halloween : yg mlm hantu tu ke?

12. Sex : female.

13. Religion : islam.

14. Hate : coffee! tea! nescafe! fish! heee~

15. Fear : Allah.

16. Marriage : 2018.can baby?

17. Blonde : blonde rmbut? cm best gak.

18. Slippers : nk beli br.selipar dah xchntek!

19. Shoes : nike.the blue one! i want it!

20. Asians : taste jepun n korea!

21. Past time : little bit creepy.

22. One night stand : yeah! sampai kol 9.ngan ejat n airen. sweet memories!

23. My cell Phone : oh.damn miss my old hp.nokia 7390!

24. Smoke : jauh kn.

25. Fantasy : be a princess.

26. College : oh.tpm? sucks!

27. High school Life : damn best!

28. Pajamas : pajamas smoothy.sejuk je tdo.

29. Stars : micheal jackson dah xde.

30. Center : resource center? br pegi td.

31. Alcohol : jauh kan.

32. The word love : u were everything! u r my lover.u r my friend.everything!

33. Friends : damn freaky.crazy! love them!

34. Money : need it everyday.

35. Heartache : ouch.i had it at the past.

36. Time : 5.53 p.m

37. Divorce : ouh!no!

38. Number : 8..hehe~

39. Undies : hah?

40. Parents : oh.love them both.abd hamid + suraidah!

41. Babies : auww..want a cute girl and boy.

42. Ex : got 7.

43. Song : ku ingin kau untuk ku.dye bg..so sweet!

44. Color : white

45. Weddings : i want black and white theme.wow!

46. Pizza : Hawaiian chicken.

47. Hangout : with who?

48. Rest : yeah! guling2 je.

49. Goal : yeah! goalshooter!

50. Inspiration : family, him and friends.

.settle down.

i hope after we meet it will be settle.
i just want he know that what i feel.
i try to speak softly bout it.
but he refuse to let me go.
if he read this, i hope u will try to accept what's going on.
try the best to forget me.
there no used anymore for us now.


just presume that today is our last meet.
thanks for everything.
bye.

hati.perasaan.jiwa.raga.sanubari

my heart is going to 'pop'!
i open my heart to someone.
for all what happen to me.
it been a such hard day.
thanks for waiting me for a long time.
hope i will get the best from him.
thanks for giving me the strength.

my state of mind, has finally got the
best of me,
I need you next to me.

♥

u drag me to heaven!

19 june 2009
nice day.yeah!
spent time together..
watch amazing movie..

DRAG ME TO HELL
nice one lah!


better u guys watch it yaw!
thanks to someone!
never been erase.
hehe~
muahx!
full of wink wink!

memories

sume nk pindah..
sume nk tnggl kn aku..
nadrah..dah pindah ucsi..
rindu nyer kt dye..
nnti sape lg nk bg aku chocolate bnyk2..
huhu..
karaoke same2..
pujuk aku if aku nangis..
miss u my dear!



lg sorg member aku.
ejat..dye pindah xbgtaw pape..
tawu2 da kt mmu..
maybe dye pon de sbb tersndiri kot..
uish..last msg dye, sorry n thanks for everything.
dye forward msg tuh kt sume dak tpm.
xpelah.maybe rezeki dye kt situ..
where ever u go, gud luck k.
hope ko berjaya.insyaAllah!
pape pon, ktorg kt sni sume terasa kehilangan ko doe..
sape nk jd lecturer vokal lg?
sape nk jd WA netbll agy?
sape nk overnite same2 agy?
huish..sdey doe..
gonna miss u!



lg sorg member aku..pon nk benti kolej..
xtawu lah mane dye nk pegi..
ayet.hope ko samb study smentara umur ko still muda agy..
thanks for everything..
thanks jd kwn yg baik..
even aku kenal ko xlama.tp ko baik ngan aku..
aku mintak maaf if aku de buat salah..
pape contact je aku..
thanks again.
aku harap berjuta aku dpt kwn mcm ko..


aku doa kn korg dpt sesuai dgn tmpt baru k..
thanks for everything..
gonna miss u all!

totally damn!

what cn i say just, lost inside.
shit! ape salah aku?
totally damn!
bodoh nye aku pegi percaya kt org mcm tuh.
siot arrr!
nk marah pon xgune..benda dah jd!
so now, aku just kena kuat.
he's not mine!
i will throw him far far away!
happy to be single!
pape pon..aku mmg dah xbley blah ngan dye.
fuck off!

to him :
don't say that u need me
and don't play these games with my mind
you better get outta my head cuz you're wastin my time
and don't say its forever
and don't play, cuz u had ur shot
u better stop messin' around cuz ur gonna caught

u won't get me back.
don't say that u're sorry
for breaking every inch of my heart
i should've known from the start
now its time to get lost!

human vs machine

today, i just watched terminator salvation with my friends.
airen.moon.piqa.tain.mak tam and kak waya.



neyh hero dye..hehe~
gler ramai org kt mid..
aku, mak tam n moon sampai 3 kali lepas tren..
wah! gler tension!
damn ar ktm!
eh, rase nk beli jet pejuang ouh time uh!
geram tol..
tunggu tren dr mid pukul 5.15 sampai hostel 7.30.
gler kn?
huhu~
nasib bek org yg sbar..haish!
okay..penat.bye2!